crazy ass loser
Hello there, i have been abandoning this tumblr for way too long. I’m just not so into the “pouring your hearts out on blogs/tumblrs” kind of thing.
moving on,
i’ve had a very.. occupied life these days. if you want to look at it that way. First month of school has its ups and downs, there are days where i feel totally positive when things are going well.. but there are times when i truly detest school and everything. Especially with SPM this year, and the load of homework which was uncalled for during the CNY holidays. A ton of amount of homework in such a short period of time.
i’ve met someone new. This particular person is someone very unexpected. And i mean by unexpected as in, i didn’t know this person is going to give me a huge impact and insight in life nor have i expected this person to.. inspire me. It’s truly odd how life works. At times its so typical that you could predict it, then you’re just sick of hoping some miracles or surprises would happen.. until one day, one very unexpected thing happens.
Everyone keeps saying things like “expect the unexpected, unexpected things would happen, etc..”. truthfully, i’ve never exactly grasp the real meaning of it. UNTIL, it happened to me.
I don’t want to sound cliche or something typical, but i do know that what i’m saying is nothing special… i’m totally just saying all these in my own perspective of things. this person is someone that taught me too many things that nobody is willing to teach me about.
this person (no names mentioned), has yet to learn about himself. I guess, at some point, we all have our breaking point and that little voice in our head telling us we’re not worth to be treated as human or some sort like that. Because, to be honest, i have that little voice telling myself too. In some ways, its just showing that, you’re just human. We feel love, pain, sorrows, grief, and all sorts of feelings.
LB, you taught me how to let people in my life. you taught me how to be selfless in life, to have a heart that feels. You taught me not to be afraid how to feel, and that i’m worth someone’s time after all. Most of all? You taught me, Love.
I love the fact that you’d listen to all of my horrendous, and ridiculous stories of me. No matter how ugly they sound. That i deserve better when i thought i don’t, you were there for me when i was at my lowest point where i wouldn’t admit i was heartbroken.
to sum it all up, you are the unexpected in my life right at this very moment. And in the very most best way. You are truly amazing.
i’m sorry if this disappointed any of you that it isn’t any post about my life or school. But, i’d just love to let this particular person know that he’s someone very important in my life.
<3
